I thought I wasnt going to get there thanks to the signal failures, cancelled and delayed trains and when I got into London they announced all services are suspended or cancelled. Oh well I was there so I went to practice, stuff getting back home that would have to wait. It seems the more effort I have to make to get there the better practice is.
I had more focus for this weeks mysore practice, a much slower steadier, less manic rythm. It amazes me how we all start together but our progression through the series is so different, but it does mean you get lots of adjustments, as we all get to “those” asanas at different times, apart from a nudge in the Trikonasanas, my first adjustment was in Prasarita Padot C, I am beginning to like being taken further, my shoulders no longer find it so excruciating. Help again this week in Utita Hasata Padangusthasana, being told when to inhale and exhale helped the pose as much as the physical help.
I could feel I was quite open today in Paschimottanasana, so when I went into Triang Mukha and felt the pressure on my back I went with it, but this week C. added another increment, I dont know how it happened but I managed to stretch beyond my outstretched foot and hold my wrist, never done that before. Lately my knees wont even get on the bus never mind come to the party, particularly the left one, I just about managed the Janusirsasanas, but had to modify Mari B & D. But at least my mind no longer measure my practice in terms of doing or mostly not doing the Marichyasanas. C. has given my mind new things to think about and reach for, somehow without making them a mental measurement of my practice, my mind is still in shock at doing them. Kurmasana and Supta Kurmasana also got taken further today, my legs went wider, my breath was more even, crossed my ankles, lifted and then she added taking my legs back, though after 3 goes couldn’t quite get this, but its another little addition to think about, which doesn’t rely on my knees and with practice seems possible. Deep adjustment in Baddha Konasana, her full weight taking me forward, I have lalways been able to get quite a way on my own with this one, but I thought I had reached my limit, not anymore, I have only been that far forward once before when DK adjusted me in Stockholm last year.
Urdva Dhanurasana felt ok, though I wasnt adjusted I could hear C.s instructions, “hands in a bit, elbows in“, As it had felt good I stood at the front of my mat and did a little drop back just to see how far I could go and was all set to head into the following Paschimottanasana, but I had been spotted and C. suggested I have a go at walking backwards down the wall, this is a different ball game, first attempt I kind of got to the floor, but my feet flew out from under me, second go I twisted somehow and lost it, there is a panic point where you get stuck, but she got me to go again and on number 4 I got down and came back up with her talking me through it. Another increment to my practice, another which feels possible and one I am determined to crack. I know why my home practice takes so long now, its all these things I never thought were possible for a 40 year old yogi with knackered knees, she has reignited my practice, shown there is a future and not just a past, my practice has places to go.
I can feel each week she is adding to my practice and its wonderful, mysore practice on a regular basis is much more challenging both mentally and phycially, but it feels like you get so much more from it, but it does need to be nurtured by a good teacher and somehow I have stumbled on a brilliant one.