My energy level seems to go from one extreme to the other.Last night I had a slug like primary, though I think in part it was due to a wheat made pastry I had a couple of days ago, it usually takes a couple of days from having something I shouldn’t for it to show in my health and my practice. Home early as usual on a Friday and straight on my mat for a no faffing, no criminality, one end to the other Primary series including a finger touch on the second side of Mari D, though I no longer get hung up on whether I do this or not, as I have other toys further on in the series to look forward to including a nicely fully bound Supta K, despite temperatures nowhere near a Shala’s. Nice practice
Three hours later I was listening to the brilliant second CD of Kate Bush’s Aerial album, it reminded me that I used to listen to it every Friday night on thew way to the L-Shaped room and I started to do a few slow sun salutations, which led to Pasasana and for a change I actually remembered Bekhasana on the way to my cheaters Ustrasana. I realised as I was slowly going back in Laghu Vajrasana that I had the feeling of engaging something extra in the front of my body and quite unexpectedly had more control as I went back.It was weird it was like I had found a new lever to pull, maybe one of the anatomists has a vague idea of what I am blathering on about. So as that went well I decided to do some dropback experiments, though I found it more difficult to find my new lever and use it to control my descent.
I sometimes feel that I need to do more at home for my practice to have the same value as one done at the Shala, with its adjustment, heat and energy. Its the intensity and focus that cannot be had in a practice home alone and it feels like I have to make up for them in some way. I will get my shala practice on Sunday at AYL, hopefully with teachers who know me this week and who can help me, unlike the other week when I practised without much assistance at all. A year ago going to AYL felt such a big step, I was nervous about going through that door, now I know that so long as I don’t go in a certain spot once on my mat good things can happen.